Today i remember her saying, 'everything hurts.' and i remember myself beliving on her pain. There is nothing more real than pain. i can not help but thinking about the absences of pain and how those can also misunderstoods. Pain also implies the reactions to pain from the society.

I need to think this through, i know. but today, I just wanted to make sure I give her a space in my thoughts to her. even if is not the space. even if im not using the right words, like she used to.