Sep 26, 2012

felicidad.



I saw a documentary today that talks about 'happiness.' the way that others perceive happiness and how different people in the world are conceiving happiness sometimes very different from other societies. I thought that it was an interesting movie just to be able to see other realities and understand the bilogical, and real implications of mood. However, after watching that movie, i started thinking about meanings. And, soon, my mind went gto many other places.

I wonder, is 'happiness' really exist? or is just a constrcution of own desire to create the meaning on a words that will either motivate us, or diminish us, depending on what moment we are in our lives. Not sure if this makes sense, even to me right now. But in an attempt to understand why is 'being happy' so important in our vovabulary, in our definitions of reality, i need to ask myself these questions.

This takes me, somehow, to narrow down my ideas so far.. if happines is a social construction of a meaning that we are wanting that word to have, then, many people can give different meaning to that word. And, following this guideline, for now, then I am happy, as long as I gave 'happy' the meanings that are important to me. I am not done thinking through this. But i am not done putting meaning to my own word of 'happiness' either, yet.

Sep 4, 2012


Vuelvo a mis dias, de estar mas cerca de mi misma. Vuelvo a mis dias de lecturas, a mis dias en que platico conmigo antes de dormir para darme aliento ante cosas que parecieran imposibles para mi. Vuelvo a una cafeina moderada, a aquella que disfruto mas. Vuelvo a esa necesidad de correjirme y de leerme en voz alta, sintiendo que es la unica forma de sentirme escuchada. Vuelvo a mis pasiones, a mis miedos, a mi lugares para tomar cafe y te favoritos.vuelvo a mis andadas.
Alguien me pregunto hoy por el. Senti mi cara estrujada, y mi expresion vacia. Fue un momento que me ayudo a percatarme de lo importante que el fue para mi, y que ya esta bien que deje de negarlo. No quiero que mi cara o mis expresiones sean vacias. pero tampoco quiero que ocupe un gran espacio en mis dias. Quiero lo que siempre he  querido, un balance. Aun no lo he encontrado. pero por lo tanto, ya me encontre a mi. Y encontrarme a mi, ha sido lo mejor que me ha pasado en mucho tiempo.

The lesser blessed

I have to tell you something, I said, I’m not going to lie, I have to tell you I have this god-shaped hole in my  heart, and I think you do ...